After becoming divorced , and after being single for 6-1/2 years, getting the proper help, medications, and other support I needed and worked hard for , I made the rash decision to make myself eligible and start to date again.
I set up an account on a very well known site for dating. I hesitantly filled out the lengthy questionaire and enclosed my mental health and physical health in the profile. Saying to myself, I just put my self and my life out on the line... Hopefully this will be s good thing. It wasn't long before a woman contacted me; we asked questions and enjoyed reading each other's answers !!!
A short amount of time went by before we were chatting on the phone and then eventually our first date.
We set up our first date to have sushi at a great place,and just chat., no expectations and certainly no pressure.
I was very nervous and yes, borderline scared. I was so nervous. But I worked out the jitters. We had a wonderful time and even though there was no romantic feeling between us , the thought of having a new friend to enjoy a dinner or movie with seemed great.
We continued to enjoy chatting with each other and set up a second date!
The day before we were to meet, I received a very generic call from this lady, asking how I was and what was I doing later?
I then got the " break up talk"
I'm so sorry, your such a wonderful guy, but I neglected to inform you," my ex husband was bi polar... And I don't want to go through all this again , it hurt to much!!!"
With unprejudice I told her it's ok, I want you to be happy. I hope you find what your looking for and its ok , I understand!!
I saw her walking by a few weeks ago and she acted like she didn't know me.
After chatting with my therapist about this venture, and gaining insight into all of it, I decided to remove my profile from this site..
I am not ready to date and nor am I ready to deal with the stigma of it all.