I've no idea what I am suffering but there is something going on with me. I recently just moved back to Scotland after 5 years living in Spain. I left initially as I wanted to try living overseas and learn a language and go native. I was continuing to work overseas elsewhere at same time on a rotational basis month/month which meant I was leaving my long term partner at home in Spain like I did in Scotland previously. Anyway her spending got out of hand and she became addicted to Cocaine. Also she was drinking with some right lowlife and following them like a sheep rather than take advise from me and look after ourselves not other people who were not worthy of ang good. I managed to keep it al together although stressful in Spain where it all seems to have been left behind. In Scotland I am grateful she is transformed and spending much less and behaving. However now that I can relax a wee bit I find myself with high anxiety and looking back too much with regrets and find I get quite angry about it. I don't normally look back only forward but this has taken its toll on me for sure with all the arguments, the trust issues, spending, drugs and a few more issues along way. Not sure I can see it through even though things are good in Scotland and might need help but note sure if its what I need. Maybe I just need to get a grip or something. For the first time in my 50 years I find myself in need of something or someone where normally I am the therapist, savior and the dude that sorts things out. Not sure where to g or what to do. Its lie a delayed reaction for sure. any friendly advice.