I was blackout drunk on a Saturday afternoon and my husband and I were fighting with everyone and ourselves. I went to his parents to get my son and midsentance forgot what I was going to say and it was so awkward and they knew I was drunk so theater texted my husband that they needed to talk to us so then my husband calls him and they were fighting and my father in law said we were bad parents because our daughter was with a friend and we didn't know where she was so I randomly called this girls mom and flipped out on her but I can't even remember what I said. We talked about it later when I snapped out of it and everything was fine but I can't get over it and I feel like suicidal. I just can't stop having this feeling and I hate myself now. I think this is rock bottom for me.
Help me