Nora
January, 25 2023 at 4:01 am

I am also struggling with this issue. I have been drinking since I was 17 I used to binge drink a lot on weekends and was always the normal type of drunk I had never experienced issues before even I blacked out. In 2018 I had my first episode of being a rageful and angry drunk. I got my first and only DUI that night and it scared me to my core. If I drink beer or a few cocktails the whole night I am good. If I drink mostly liquor or drink on an empty stomach i end up saying suicidal thoughts out loud, cry and get angry at something that happens. It is embarrassing and I have hurt some of the closest people to me. I am fortunate that i haven’t lost anyone completely but I absolutely hate being told of my actions and the hurtful things I said. I think that as we age alcohol affects us differently and of course any trauma or pain we have experienced over the years tends to show when we are drunk and vulnerable. I don’t have a drinking problem and usually I have a drink or two of wine at night or a few drinks on the weekend. I don’t know if I will ever be a fun drunk unless I control my alcohol intake and ensure I don’t black out again.